Moments

          Ok- today I am definitely in a better mood. I've started to get over the fact I didn't get into the illustration program and now I'm just moving on with what needs to be done. I was watching several news programs on the New Years Eve in preparation to watch the ball drop and a celebrity said something I actually appreciated. I don't even remember who it was or what station it was on but in lieu of New Year's resolutions this celebrity woman said something to the effect of  " I just want to enjoy the moment I'm living in right now. I don't want to just be looking forward to something in the future I want to enjoy right now". I've realized I'm too goal oriented and when I fail, and I often do fail at goals, I get depressed even though there are many enjoyable things going on in my life.
            So I'm not going to call it a new year resolution but my big life change for right now is to not worry about the future. So far it's been nice. I haven't gotten hardly anything done on my to do list but I've had genuinely good days. I've read, hung out with my husband, day dreamed, cooked dinner (which I actually like doing) and I've cleaned my house. Most of all I'm way more relaxed than I was two days ago when I was still stressing out about being someone who just can't exist. I even found time to do yoga which was really nice. Anyways the point is, I've spent a lot of time worrying about what I should be doing and I forget to enjoy what I am doing. You don't have to do everything everyday to be an accomplished person you just have to have accomplished moments. I also read an excellent article about how having goals will mess you up and I totally agree. The link is below.
                                      http://www.entrepreneur.com/article/230333
          What I really want to accomplish with these posts is to find magic in my life when it's hard to find. So far slowing down and paying attention to right now makes me feel like I have a magical life. It's honestly the small things like a sleeping kitten on your lap while you read, or a husband snoring next to you, or just some beautiful snow covered mountains that makes life magical. Big accomplishments (like getting accepted into a program) are great but they don't happen very often. I don't want to have to wait on just big things to be happy.