I have come to the sad conclusion that nobody has ever really believed in me. Of course my mother always told me "I think you can do anything you set your mind to", but I don't really think she's ever expected me to do anything great. I've never had a teacher or a friend believe I could do great things. I guess that's normal, there's not a lot of people I expect to do great things. However I think we should. What if all it took for more people to achieve their dreams was to have someone believe they could do it. Every time I've had a big idea it's been shot down so fast I never had time to really dream about it. I once told my father that it would be awesome if my friends and I could record our own music. His response was basically that it was a stupid idea and that recording studios and equipment are so amazingly expensive that we would never get close. And now look how many people have gotten famous on YouTube because they had some simple home recording equipment at home.
My husband is the same way. I want to make money from home. That is one of my biggest dreams. I would feel so settled if I could contribute financially to my family and still be able to be home with my children. However every time I have an idea on how to do this suddenly my husband has 20 reasons why I can't. I won't make this mistake. When people come to me with ideas, even if I think they're crazy, I'm going to tell them I think they should try it. What is left for me is believing in myself. I've started to dream and scheme quietly so that nobody can tell me I can't. When I succeed and they wonder at the fact they had no idea I was even planning such things. I will just smile and say "and therefore you never had the chance to tell me I couldn't". I hope this happens because I love more then anything to prove people wrong about what I can do.
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