On Monday I ran 5 miles with only a 30 second water break. That is the farthest I have run in one sitting in my entire life. I am 23 years old almost 24 this month and I just wish I had started really living my life earlier. There are so many things I feel like I've already missed out on. I know it's poppy cock and that I have quite a bit of life left, I just feel lately that my time is so precious I wish that I hadn't wasted a second of it. Although the only way you find out how precious time is, is if you waste enough of it to regret it. I dream a lot of going back in time and doing things over but I always remember that there is nothing I could change or too many good things would be missing.
I wouldn't have met my friend Laura in Mesa, I wouldn't have my kitties Remus and Romulus, and I might not have married Sterling. Truly when I think about it I like where I am. To be a little more clear though I do wish I'd started exercising when I was 10, eating healthy when I was 5 and drawing and practicing music every day since then as well. This comes from feeling like I'll never be truly who I want to be- a fit and active happy mom with mad drawing and music skills. I know my childhood was important and I wouldn't trade my imaginary adventures for anything but I could've watched a lot less TV. Even if I had just played outside more I think I would feel more at ease with where my time has gone. Since I can't go back the only thing to do is make sure I don't waste any more time. I hope I'll be able to do this for my children, give them a childhood they couldn't imagine regretting.
When people say that children are the future I don't think they know how right they are. Everything we do influences the world that the next generation will grow up in which in turn will influence the world we will all exist in. When people say that children are the future they need to remember that means we as adults are making the future.
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